I know it's been a little while since I posted.. I have felt like I was driving along and came to a sudden unexpected stop... and I've been waiting for my car to be fixed?? Does that make sense???
I'm not going to lie. I felt/feel: discouraged, confused, disappointed, etc... (insert word here) pretty much whatever word it is I have felt it. I felt alone, I felt surrounded... I felt lost.
Now... the future. This is happening. I know it is going to happen for M&M and I am researching some natural ways to help out. I have heard a lot of good things about acupuncture and massage to help in the fertility process and the transfer itself... I am going to bring this up to M&M and the clinic and see where they stand with it.
Timeline? What do we do differently?
Well I have to wait for my next cycle- (end of October) to start the BC pills again and meds.... M&M were told of a possible mid Nov transfer date... I'm not sure how that works exactly?
Things will be a little different this time.. I will now be doing the progesterone shots instead of inserts... twice a day... big old huge needles (Joe refuses to do it for me.. I supposedly can't do them myself either...) along with the lupron shots I give myself (smaller needle) I'm a little nervous about those, but whatever I can do... I will do! Shots are shots... it's all for the greater good.. and right now since my body didn't really like the inserts... anythings better!
Anyway- that's where we are! We are just in a standstill until the end of the month and then it's full steam ahead though.
Sometimes I catch myself... but then I refocus on the future and not the past.
October is Infant Loss Awareness month. I am aware! Are you?
Blogging about our journey through surrogacy. I hope to be transparently raw and real through this whole ordeal and maybe touch the lives of not just our intended parents, but others who may be considering this gift of life.
