Wednesday, October 10, 2012

What's happening in the baby making world...

I know it's been a little while since I posted.. I have felt like I was driving along and came to a sudden unexpected stop... and I've been waiting for my car to be fixed??   Does that make sense???

I'm not going to lie.  I felt/feel:  discouraged, confused, disappointed, etc... (insert word here) pretty much whatever word it is I have felt it.  I felt alone, I felt surrounded... I felt lost.

Now... the future.  This is happening.  I know it is going to happen for M&M and I am researching some natural ways to help out.  I have heard a lot of good things about acupuncture and massage to help in the fertility process and the transfer itself... I am going to bring this up to M&M and the clinic and see where they stand with it.

Timeline?  What do we do differently?

Well I have to wait for my next cycle- (end of October) to start the BC pills again and meds.... M&M were told of a possible mid Nov transfer date... I'm not sure how that works exactly?

Things will be a little different this time.. I will now be doing the progesterone shots instead of inserts... twice a day... big old huge needles (Joe refuses to do it for me.. I supposedly can't do them myself either...)  along with the lupron shots I give myself (smaller needle) I'm a little nervous about those, but whatever I can do... I will do!  Shots are shots... it's all for the greater good.. and right now since my body didn't really like the inserts... anythings better!

Anyway- that's where we are!  We are just in a standstill until the end of the month and then it's full steam ahead though.

Sometimes I catch myself... but then I refocus on the future and not the past.

October is Infant Loss Awareness month.  I am aware!  Are you?